MONDAYS
me: * in the middle of a completely irrational breakdown* you know what… I BET I DON’T EVEN HAVE BPD. IM JUST A BIG FAKER
the hardest part of having breakdowns is having to clean up all the loser depressing msgs after its over and pretend nothin happened it’s so awkward?? Like “oops sorry I sent that 10 sentence message about how much I want to die, im ok now so how are u lol”
This that weather when you don’t even take your hands out to change the song.. You be like “ fuck it ” I ain’t heard this in awhile 😫😂😂
Borderline Thing #109
Doing something to get attention and when the attention comes panicking and aborting mission ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Submitted by anonymous
People around me:
*display personality traits that make them unique and well liked*
Brain:
⚠🚨⚠🚨⚠🚨⚠🚨!!!!????!?!?! do we have those
Me:
*checks files* Uhhhhhh nope
Brain:
Me:
Brain:
steal
bpd stuff
me:
please friends give me reassurance please tell me you love me tell me you don't secretly hate me or are annoyed by me please give me some peace of mind please tell me you love me and that you won't leave me
friends:
i love you and I won't leave you
me:
what the fuck why did i do that i guilted those people into doing that im a fucking monster god i don't deserve these people i'm so manipulative and evil what the fuck what the fu
At the gym to get healthy:
Gemini, Virgo, Pisces
At the gym to get sexy:
Leo, Libra, Scorpio
At the gym to get strong:
Aries, Taurus, Capricorn
Not at the gym:
Cancer, Sagittarius, Aquarius
someone:
doesn't text me back immediately
my bpd ass:
it's because they're at a SECRET MEETING with all my loved ones and they're talking about how ANNOYING I am and how they're all going to ABANDON me
Me:
*panics and gets extremely upset when someone abandons me*
Me:
*distances myself from everyone.*
this is how bpd works:
Me:
please reassure me that I'm not an awful person
Friends:
what?! Of course you aren't! You are a good friend
Me:
...
Me:
you're only saying that because I told you to
Friends:
no, that's not-
Me:
I KNEW IT I MANIPULATED YOU OH MY GOD IM JUST AS AWFUL AS I FEARED JUST LEAVE ME BEFORE I HURT YOU MORE
Friends:
wtf is going on
Me:
I wish I fucking knew
me: *sees post about emotionally manipulative behaviors*
me: *immediately begins to panic and feel overwhelming guilt for times when my insecurity and desire for attention and reassurance from my loved ones has overwhelmed me because what if I accidentally manipulated someone at some point when I was in a frenzied state*
me: *feels completely undeserving of relationships or love but continues to crave them*
me: *is a piece of shit*